Tuesday, December 21, 2010
TO BE CONTINUE~
Monday, November 1, 2010
Boo~~ HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
Wish there were some kind of party and stuff like those in america! :\ Would love to have a party specially to celebrate Halloween! How fun! :D
Anyway, today had a real sweet dream, ahaha still, it's fake cox it's only a dream! Lmao my dream always felt so real when i'm dreaming in lalaland! I really thought it happened for real and in my dream, i was all crazy over it and was about to change my status from "single" to "in a relationship" for FB! Lmao too real to be too fake! Haha just a dream, i know! :)
Exams are half way done and still have about 6 more papers to go! :) I roughly know how i will be scoring especially for chem! That was ehh... well, there's still phys paper and the MCQ paper to help it! Shall log off now since there's nothing much to update! :)
Bumnight lovelies! Muack! :]
Anyway, today had a real sweet dream, ahaha still, it's fake cox it's only a dream! Lmao my dream always felt so real when i'm dreaming in lalaland! I really thought it happened for real and in my dream, i was all crazy over it and was about to change my status from "single" to "in a relationship" for FB! Lmao too real to be too fake! Haha just a dream, i know! :)
Exams are half way done and still have about 6 more papers to go! :) I roughly know how i will be scoring especially for chem! That was ehh... well, there's still phys paper and the MCQ paper to help it! Shall log off now since there's nothing much to update! :)
Bumnight lovelies! Muack! :]
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Till our eyes meet again :)
Oh, my Jay oppa has already left Singapore for Manila, Philippines. I had intended to go to the airport to see him & his lovely AOM crew before they set off but decided not to go because the stalkers(ok joking!!) aka Jwalkerz said they couldn't find him anywhere. And i think it's pretty harsh and unfair for him and his crew because ppl keep stalking them, especially him! Feel sorry for him but can't help in any way :( I read someone's tweet and she's so right. Jay is always stalked or i may say hunted 24/7 whenever he goes, and he sure doesn't feel nice inside but he can't do anything about it. He doesn't has his own freedom and space. Pretty sad about this stalking thing although it has already been this way since long time ago. Trust me, i really want him to be well and i seriously hope nobody stalks him again but chances of this happening are SLIM... Sigh. He doesn't seem to be happy at all when he's out and about in public during his own time :( He seriously needs some breathing space!! :(
My life is bland now because it's difficult to know what the dude's doing when he's flying around unless he updates us himself. Like he said, he'll come back to meet us again in the future, although idk how long the wait will be. I'm looking forward to meeting him again and i'm sure it'll be a brand new chapter in our lives then :)
Anyway, have been recollecting crazy memories of the past few days cox it's just so unforgettable. Mad long waiting and queueing @Wavehouse, Sentosa in the drizzles, mad laughing and screaming @Jay Park Fan Meets Tour 2010 with other girls, mad twittering anything abt Jay, it's just MAD~ :D if i'm not wrong, i used abt 12 hours of lappy for yesterday, technically counted as today and yesterday because i stopped playing at around 4:30am~ Lappy time were increasing since last Thurs because of Jay's stay in Singapore. Can't help cox i didn't wan2 miss out anything about him! I'm not different from those out-and-about-stalker lol! Awww neck bones have been aching for days because of that too. It feels as if they're going to break apart my head and shoulders '_' sour and intolerable aching but i can't move away from thus stupid lappy.
You know, i think i should start slimming down now, really. Anyone recommend any exercise? I'm thinking of jogging everyday but i hate jogging because it always make me feel sick after the exercise. I've been controlling my dinner though, trying to eat less rice but i'm always hungry around 11pm. That sucks because i always feel guilty for eating again. But if i don't eat and i starve myself, i'd feel inferior and think i wouldn't grow taller anymore. Just LOL at myself for these~~
Alright going FB & TT now~ bumbye~ ^3^ i miss u jay who's already in Manila now! I wan2 breathe the same air as u my dear :[
My life is bland now because it's difficult to know what the dude's doing when he's flying around unless he updates us himself. Like he said, he'll come back to meet us again in the future, although idk how long the wait will be. I'm looking forward to meeting him again and i'm sure it'll be a brand new chapter in our lives then :)
Anyway, have been recollecting crazy memories of the past few days cox it's just so unforgettable. Mad long waiting and queueing @Wavehouse, Sentosa in the drizzles, mad laughing and screaming @Jay Park Fan Meets Tour 2010 with other girls, mad twittering anything abt Jay, it's just MAD~ :D if i'm not wrong, i used abt 12 hours of lappy for yesterday, technically counted as today and yesterday because i stopped playing at around 4:30am~ Lappy time were increasing since last Thurs because of Jay's stay in Singapore. Can't help cox i didn't wan2 miss out anything about him! I'm not different from those out-and-about-stalker lol! Awww neck bones have been aching for days because of that too. It feels as if they're going to break apart my head and shoulders '_' sour and intolerable aching but i can't move away from thus stupid lappy.
You know, i think i should start slimming down now, really. Anyone recommend any exercise? I'm thinking of jogging everyday but i hate jogging because it always make me feel sick after the exercise. I've been controlling my dinner though, trying to eat less rice but i'm always hungry around 11pm. That sucks because i always feel guilty for eating again. But if i don't eat and i starve myself, i'd feel inferior and think i wouldn't grow taller anymore. Just LOL at myself for these~~
Alright going FB & TT now~ bumbye~ ^3^ i miss u jay who's already in Manila now! I wan2 breathe the same air as u my dear :[
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Before.
24 hours ago i was at the concert screaming, shouting and cheering for JAY & AOM~ I could do anything to go back to yesterday. Awwww... :( i miss them..
Best I Ever Had ♥
Just for us, for real ♥ You and I, we the Jwalkerz ♥
Jay tattoed "Jwalkerz" somewhere near the back of his neck because Jwalkerz got his back :) so sweet right!! That's already proved how much he loves his fans as well as us fans loving him~
I hearts 25-09-2010 to the max!!! It's real, i saw him and he was in front, and i watched him dancing, singing, wiping his sweat, ripping his singlet and his everything!
Never ever felt this way before, i still can't believe i saw him in person just now. It was no longer just some pictures on my lappy and tv screen. It's real, hot and sexy! It's really sweet and touching. :)
I want to share every feeling i have had, because technically it's already 26-09-2010 now :) I don't wan2 let all these feelings slip because i'm afraid i would forget most of it the moment i wake up. Hengbokhae, i feel so bliss now :) I'm super tired, toes are in pain because i stood for a long time and i haven't had any food since 12noon but im going to pen everything down~ Simple yet touching is all i have to say for this fan meeting/ concert~ (^,^)V
I'm afraid this post is going to be looooooooong and frustrating to read so i shall point out the most important ones! :D Peace~
♥ Woke up at 11am and ate, dyed hair, bathed, packed bag and went out~ I kept coughing when i was on the mrt it felt so uncomfortable! I've just recovered from cold, sore throat and 2 ulcers. I'm still having cough though but went out no matter what.
♥ Set off around 1:50pm and reached Sentosa around 2:50pm~ Never been there on my own before so we cabbed into sentosa and dropped off at Beach Station~ It was drizzling so i had to cover my head with newspapers cox we didn't have unbrella. Scolded my bro cox he later found an umbrella in his bag!
♥ Saw a long queue of Jwalkerz and started queueing at 3pm and we were pretty far from the entrance. Floor was wet so i sat on a newspaper~ Ate some tibits and waited until 7 plus and stood up finally becox people said Jay and Aom reached. I didn't their car but indeed they arrived and were preparing backstage~
♥ Concert started pretty late at 8 something although it was set to start at 7pm. Didn't hear any fans complaining so no big deal because we still saw them! Gotten a stupid place to stand and we were always blocked but luckily we were in front of the big screen so nothing to complain again :) Dislike the standing area the most because there is a shallow pool in the middle and some ppl went down while those people who didn't kept blocking the ones behind.
♥ Everyone at the scene went crazy when dearest Jay appeared on stage and sang his first song, "Count On Me- Nothing On You"! That was my very first time seeing my precious Jay! \(^,^)/ He sang so well and i believe many people agree that his live performances are even better than the cds version~
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Hahaha my lovely Jay may not be a tall handsome man but he looks so fine in person! Very proportionate and thin man but he's super fit! He's definitely fit because we could see his wide chest and arm muscles! I think by looking at his tummy i can feel the his sexy abs! I knew many girls tweeted how they felt his wide chest and abs and everything when he hugged them at some events yesterday~ And some girls actually said he smelled nice but i'm not sure if it was perfume or the natural manly body smell~ I believe it was the nice nice manly smell~ hehehe i also wan2 smell it!! (LOL not body ordour can?) ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
(T_T) I'm super JEALOUS & ENVIOUS! Should have attended these events if i knew that would happen!* Hehehe actually i think many fans saw his somewhat obvious nipple~ LOL im not being dirtyminded thinking of his nipples but i just couldn't pretend i didn't see the 2 "raisins", even though he was wearing his plain shirt~ :D
♥ Q&A session with AOM crew and they were in simple T-shirt and jeans~ They must be feeling warm on stage because the lights were on them and Jay kept wiping sweats off his forehead~ Poor thing, i wanted to give u my tissue but i couldn't reach u~ Anyway, Jay said he was most satisfied with his long arms :) haha i would say ur hot and amazing JAYBUM BODEH~~~ 2 lucky fans were choosen to dance on stage and and in the end won autograph posters and had picture taken with Jay & AOM~ Funny Jay danced by himself when the music started playing. That's how much he loves dancing~ :)
♥ Happy times passes very fast but no regrets at all for this time :) After my toilet break i eventually happened to know my Jay baby and AOM were leaving so we ran over to their van and got really up clse with some of them! I saw them thru the windows and they were cute! I couldn't find Jay cox everything happened too fast and I didn't know where he was seated. That was a mere 2 or 3 secs which i was really close to them! Precious moments!!!!!
I'll never forget this day because i know i made the right decision to support these guys, especially when the main reason is that they have what it take to make ppl love them~ :) These guys are not some fake people and we fans are proud of it! I won't forget today definitely also because I saw them, which indeed made one of my dreams come true~ Sigh i really want a hug and an autograph from Jay~ :( but I believe i still have chances of fulfilling these 2 wishes in the future :) I heart u guys especially JAYbummie~ I worried abit when i saw him on the big screen when he just came on stage because he looked weak and tired. Funnily when it was his turn to dance and sing, he was very energetic ahahha, so nothing to worry about~ As a fan who loves him so much, i really want him to rest well and not push himself so hard. Oh not forgetting to say my Jay baby always glows on stage~ Stage is indeed where he belongs and he should be :D I wish them the best in doing everything and may they're even more successful than now~
Alright enough of my fan-account and everything alse, i need to sleep now if not my bones are going to break apart~ bye bye and BUMNIGHT to everyone~ :3
PS: I think i'll go stalk Jay and AOM when i wake up later cox i think it's fun to stalk Jay and AOM and i've never stalked anyone before~ :D
Jay tattoed "Jwalkerz" somewhere near the back of his neck because Jwalkerz got his back :) so sweet right!! That's already proved how much he loves his fans as well as us fans loving him~
I hearts 25-09-2010 to the max!!! It's real, i saw him and he was in front, and i watched him dancing, singing, wiping his sweat, ripping his singlet and his everything!
Never ever felt this way before, i still can't believe i saw him in person just now. It was no longer just some pictures on my lappy and tv screen. It's real, hot and sexy! It's really sweet and touching. :)
I want to share every feeling i have had, because technically it's already 26-09-2010 now :) I don't wan2 let all these feelings slip because i'm afraid i would forget most of it the moment i wake up. Hengbokhae, i feel so bliss now :) I'm super tired, toes are in pain because i stood for a long time and i haven't had any food since 12noon but im going to pen everything down~ Simple yet touching is all i have to say for this fan meeting/ concert~ (^,^)V
I'm afraid this post is going to be looooooooong and frustrating to read so i shall point out the most important ones! :D Peace~
♥ Woke up at 11am and ate, dyed hair, bathed, packed bag and went out~ I kept coughing when i was on the mrt it felt so uncomfortable! I've just recovered from cold, sore throat and 2 ulcers. I'm still having cough though but went out no matter what.
♥ Set off around 1:50pm and reached Sentosa around 2:50pm~ Never been there on my own before so we cabbed into sentosa and dropped off at Beach Station~ It was drizzling so i had to cover my head with newspapers cox we didn't have unbrella. Scolded my bro cox he later found an umbrella in his bag!
♥ Saw a long queue of Jwalkerz and started queueing at 3pm and we were pretty far from the entrance. Floor was wet so i sat on a newspaper~ Ate some tibits and waited until 7 plus and stood up finally becox people said Jay and Aom reached. I didn't their car but indeed they arrived and were preparing backstage~
♥ Concert started pretty late at 8 something although it was set to start at 7pm. Didn't hear any fans complaining so no big deal because we still saw them! Gotten a stupid place to stand and we were always blocked but luckily we were in front of the big screen so nothing to complain again :) Dislike the standing area the most because there is a shallow pool in the middle and some ppl went down while those people who didn't kept blocking the ones behind.
♥ Everyone at the scene went crazy when dearest Jay appeared on stage and sang his first song, "Count On Me- Nothing On You"! That was my very first time seeing my precious Jay! \(^,^)/ He sang so well and i believe many people agree that his live performances are even better than the cds version~
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Hahaha my lovely Jay may not be a tall handsome man but he looks so fine in person! Very proportionate and thin man but he's super fit! He's definitely fit because we could see his wide chest and arm muscles! I think by looking at his tummy i can feel the his sexy abs! I knew many girls tweeted how they felt his wide chest and abs and everything when he hugged them at some events yesterday~ And some girls actually said he smelled nice but i'm not sure if it was perfume or the natural manly body smell~ I believe it was the nice nice manly smell~ hehehe i also wan2 smell it!! (LOL not body ordour can?) ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
(T_T) I'm super JEALOUS & ENVIOUS! Should have attended these events if i knew that would happen!* Hehehe actually i think many fans saw his somewhat obvious nipple~ LOL im not being dirtyminded thinking of his nipples but i just couldn't pretend i didn't see the 2 "raisins", even though he was wearing his plain shirt~ :D
♥ Q&A session with AOM crew and they were in simple T-shirt and jeans~ They must be feeling warm on stage because the lights were on them and Jay kept wiping sweats off his forehead~ Poor thing, i wanted to give u my tissue but i couldn't reach u~ Anyway, Jay said he was most satisfied with his long arms :) haha i would say ur hot and amazing JAYBUM BODEH~~~ 2 lucky fans were choosen to dance on stage and and in the end won autograph posters and had picture taken with Jay & AOM~ Funny Jay danced by himself when the music started playing. That's how much he loves dancing~ :)
♥ Awww adorable childhood photos were shown on big screen and fans went mad and screamed so loudly! It was sooooo cute! He had super chubby cheeks and even fairer skin tone than now! He only looked a little different now especially that he didn't have abs back then~ LOL~
♥ Sang his other songs then followed by the MV of his new but yet to be released song, "Demon"~ he's hot as always and his AOM brothers also starred in the mv cox they're his backup dancers~ :) i love AOM brotherhood~
♥ Then Jay sang "Demon" live and we loved it! Rapping and dancing real hard and i loved it! Dance moves were slick and sexy and he performed so well! overall, he's just soooo sexy! Sexiest man in the whole wide universe~ How on earth can a man be so sexy huh???? :3
♥ I don't know if i'm correct but i think the next activity was some real b-boy moves and short cheeky dance by Jay &AOM crew~ Next up was dance battle with local b-boy crew and it was sick cox everything was dope but some dance moves were quite dangerous! I went away for a drink cox i had gastric pain and couldn't stand straight. Screamed and cheered while drinking cox my attention never went out of the stage~ First time paying 100% attention to the stage becox i used to tape everything down and only looked at my cam screen. Never wanted to feel regretful so recording videos were not important at all~ Indeed i enjoyed tremendously! No regrets!!! :)
♥ Was able to view the stage even clearer when i stepped back behind cox everybody was infront~ Jay and AOM are so cute tgt! :3♥ Last song sang was "Bestie" and i love the song the most cox it's simply amazing! Whole of AOM went on the stage singing & dancing tgt :) Concert ended after the song and Jay's handwritten msg appeared on screen~ Look at his funny yet unique handwriting and u'll know how cute he is! hahaha cute right~ :3
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| Yes the Jwalkerz enjoyed the concert and we love u and AOM~ hahaha~ |
As always, I feel so bliss being Jay's Jwalkerz and Aom's fan because they're so different from the big stars we usually see. Fangirling or too obsessed or whatever u may say, if u're one of us, u'll know that's just so wrong~ They don't do fame for money (of cox $$ is important cox they have to live too but i mean they spend $$ well~) and they do what they are doing because of passion, which i think should be praised of! They don't need expensive suits or branded goods to go on stage and they're living just like everyone does and that always make people feel close and warm~
I'll never forget this day because i know i made the right decision to support these guys, especially when the main reason is that they have what it take to make ppl love them~ :) These guys are not some fake people and we fans are proud of it! I won't forget today definitely also because I saw them, which indeed made one of my dreams come true~ Sigh i really want a hug and an autograph from Jay~ :( but I believe i still have chances of fulfilling these 2 wishes in the future :) I heart u guys especially JAYbummie~ I worried abit when i saw him on the big screen when he just came on stage because he looked weak and tired. Funnily when it was his turn to dance and sing, he was very energetic ahahha, so nothing to worry about~ As a fan who loves him so much, i really want him to rest well and not push himself so hard. Oh not forgetting to say my Jay baby always glows on stage~ Stage is indeed where he belongs and he should be :D I wish them the best in doing everything and may they're even more successful than now~
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| Singing very seriously but he's cute and he sounds so good! |
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| my chop chop hand & ticket~ |
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| not Taylor body anymore! This is JAYbum bodeh~ |
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| pouty mouth :3 love this dude to the max! |
Alright enough of my fan-account and everything alse, i need to sleep now if not my bones are going to break apart~ bye bye and BUMNIGHT to everyone~ :3
PS: I think i'll go stalk Jay and AOM when i wake up later cox i think it's fun to stalk Jay and AOM and i've never stalked anyone before~ :D
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
祝我生日快乐 :)
First time receiving sooooo many bday wishes even though i don't really know some of them :D
Woke up and on the lappy and straight away logged in to FB (i was trying to comfort myself to feel very fortunate and be thankful if there was 10 wishes) and was really shocked to see those bday wishes! :D Thank you guys! It's so touching! Never expected that to happen in my life! Never ever received so many wishes before so i can't believe it! I feel so fortunate and bliss! Received the very first msg from a unknown person ytd night and it was early~ then followed by sis's msg cox she' in M'sia :D
ehehehehe i guess i'll be laughing in my dreams tonight!
LOL anyway, a B-I-G HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself~
Sun yat fai lohk~
お誕生日おめでとうございます~
생일축하합니다~
I'm officially 19 now, but im happy :)
Last but not least, I wish myself a happy and healthy year ahead! Very simple wishes so i hope my wishes will come true~ :)
*hugs and kisses* Thanks once again and i'm thankful for everything! :3
Woke up and on the lappy and straight away logged in to FB (i was trying to comfort myself to feel very fortunate and be thankful if there was 10 wishes) and was really shocked to see those bday wishes! :D Thank you guys! It's so touching! Never expected that to happen in my life! Never ever received so many wishes before so i can't believe it! I feel so fortunate and bliss! Received the very first msg from a unknown person ytd night and it was early~ then followed by sis's msg cox she' in M'sia :D
ehehehehe i guess i'll be laughing in my dreams tonight!
LOL anyway, a B-I-G HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself~
Sun yat fai lohk~
お誕生日おめでとうございます~
생일축하합니다~
I'm officially 19 now, but im happy :)
More responsibilities and nearer to death (lol kidding~) more white hairs and deeper wrinkles~ 18 is just nice and 19 sounds old. Lol not forgetting to mention both of my chinese and real birth dates are on today, 21 September 2010. I guess it has only happened once when i was born so this is the 2nd time i'm having 2 birthdays on the same day :D Not thinking of celebrating but i feel like going out~ will see how later on since it's only 9 in the morning~
Last but not least, I wish myself a happy and healthy year ahead! Very simple wishes so i hope my wishes will come true~ :)
*hugs and kisses* Thanks once again and i'm thankful for everything! :3
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| blissfully having my Macdonald breakfast: iced milo and Sausage mcgriddles with egg set :D |
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Nostalgia
Had a short library study session with Joop just now~ :) it was fun whispering and laughing with her~
I'm sure going tmr's study session because i want her to tell me the things i wan2 know badly! :D Missing the lovely and happy old times when all 3 of us taitais went to library to mug but turned out to be a chit-chatting and magazine session~ Not forgetting the times i spent with my dear tengteng and jiaojun too :D good old times always prove that we're getting old so we're reminiscing.
Sadly, my qinqin (nephew) went back to malaysia this afternoon after spending 2 weeks here. He skipped a week of school so i guess there's pile of homework waiting for him at home~ As i grow older, i always feel the increasing distance between us. When he was younger, he was with us so we were close. I don't know what to say to him or how to make him happy everytime i see him. It's like we're not close now. I make efforts to coax and play with him but i get cold shoulders at times. It is hard to make him smile. Sigh so bittersweet.
Anyway, had a lantern/ candles and sparklers session at the playground on Wed. It was joyous because i love the lantern festival atmosphere! Each year, i wish i could go back malaysia to celebrate and play around with my cousins. The candles and lanterns always melt my heart~ It's already heartwarming thinking about how we used to fool around and cycled with our lanterns hung on the bike handles. We ate and bbq-ed and chit-chitted and it was simply fun. It's one kind of true happiness i've ever had in my childhood :) And lol, my mum kept my Power Puff Girls lantern really well because it is still usable even though i got it when i was in primary school <3 <3 <3 I wonder if people still cycle with lanterns~ hahaha! Sounds abit old-fashioned though~ Some of us no longer stay together but my heart feels warm as i know we all remember we shared happiness :)
Have been writing long posts, because my fist-sized heart went through many things this week and i feel the need to pen them down before the slightest feeling disappears. It's getting late now and my eyelids are getting heavier. So signing off now~
Bye and kisses =3
To be short, i miss u so much. If we could ever be together, what would it be like?
I'm sure going tmr's study session because i want her to tell me the things i wan2 know badly! :D Missing the lovely and happy old times when all 3 of us taitais went to library to mug but turned out to be a chit-chatting and magazine session~ Not forgetting the times i spent with my dear tengteng and jiaojun too :D good old times always prove that we're getting old so we're reminiscing.
Sadly, my qinqin (nephew) went back to malaysia this afternoon after spending 2 weeks here. He skipped a week of school so i guess there's pile of homework waiting for him at home~ As i grow older, i always feel the increasing distance between us. When he was younger, he was with us so we were close. I don't know what to say to him or how to make him happy everytime i see him. It's like we're not close now. I make efforts to coax and play with him but i get cold shoulders at times. It is hard to make him smile. Sigh so bittersweet.
Anyway, had a lantern/ candles and sparklers session at the playground on Wed. It was joyous because i love the lantern festival atmosphere! Each year, i wish i could go back malaysia to celebrate and play around with my cousins. The candles and lanterns always melt my heart~ It's already heartwarming thinking about how we used to fool around and cycled with our lanterns hung on the bike handles. We ate and bbq-ed and chit-chitted and it was simply fun. It's one kind of true happiness i've ever had in my childhood :) And lol, my mum kept my Power Puff Girls lantern really well because it is still usable even though i got it when i was in primary school <3 <3 <3 I wonder if people still cycle with lanterns~ hahaha! Sounds abit old-fashioned though~ Some of us no longer stay together but my heart feels warm as i know we all remember we shared happiness :)
Have been writing long posts, because my fist-sized heart went through many things this week and i feel the need to pen them down before the slightest feeling disappears. It's getting late now and my eyelids are getting heavier. So signing off now~
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| LOL eyes closed~ |
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| always loving the candlelight and the warm and bright lantern~ :D |
Bye and kisses =3
To be short, i miss u so much. If we could ever be together, what would it be like?
Friday, September 17, 2010
What's left to say?
Today is a bad day, one hella bad day!
Had a tiff with my family and i feel so hurt after what they did and said. Put aside the things they've done, can't they just be careful with words? Is this how a family should be?? Critisizing and hurting people? We're not strangers, we're family! Money money money! The damn money that always cause so much unhappiness. If u're paid then it is a big deal, right? So if this is the case, i'll pay u $50 and i'll give u a few tight slaps, will u want it? Will u?
I always tell myself that i can give up the whole wide world, but i'll never let go of my mum! Never! And i'll always be with her no matter wad happens! The night before wasn't a peaceful night too because baby girl was having high fever and had to be rushed to the hospital. I didn't dare to sleep when u guys were not back. Why? I sacrificed my life and it's still not enough to prove how good i am? Mum didn't have any sleep because she was carrying the baby in her arms yet the parents were sleeping. Till this minute, i guess my mum has only rested around 2 hours and she's working now. Ok, let's just say u people have to work the next day but mum sacrificed her sleep, health and time for u guys. I only see unhappiness and unwillingness to look after the baby in u guys. I'm fking mad because we're not the parents yet we're doing so many things just because u said WE'RE PAID to babysit so we have to bear all the responsibilities that a parent has??? I wouldn't wan2 ur fking hundreds in the first place if i knew this would happen. So i see we're less important than ur money. If u want someone to be close with u then u should make the effort to spend time with her and try to do everything for her. It is not putting up a show in front of everybody to show how good u are.
A 19-year-old wouldn't want a life like mine. Babysitting? Stop freaking kidding! Nobody knows i feel like a loser. But i choose to live with it for the sake of u guys. It's really hurtful and disappointing... Tears are often hard to control whenever i quarrel. This is one of the few times when i cried real bad at the staircases because i don't wan2 cry in front of u lest u guys think i'm a crybaby. Yes, it is always hard on me. To u people, i am just a lazy girl who do nothing other than playing com and watching tv. Yes, thats the life i live but how are u guys better than me?
I volunteer to help with the housechores yet i don't even see u guys sweeping nor mopping unless mum ask u to. Spent an hour and the staircases and thought about lots of things. How did things turn out this way and why am i in this state? It's just heartbreaking.. I thought of leaving this home but it defnitely won't work things out. Everything changes so never to expect it to be the same forever. I used to think i have a family that loves me dearly when i was in primary school. Few years ago, i realised things were not the way i saw. I'm too stupid and naive. Greed, selfishness, life is just too pathetic for us. What to do? I guess it's a sin to live.
Had a tiff with my family and i feel so hurt after what they did and said. Put aside the things they've done, can't they just be careful with words? Is this how a family should be?? Critisizing and hurting people? We're not strangers, we're family! Money money money! The damn money that always cause so much unhappiness. If u're paid then it is a big deal, right? So if this is the case, i'll pay u $50 and i'll give u a few tight slaps, will u want it? Will u?
I always tell myself that i can give up the whole wide world, but i'll never let go of my mum! Never! And i'll always be with her no matter wad happens! The night before wasn't a peaceful night too because baby girl was having high fever and had to be rushed to the hospital. I didn't dare to sleep when u guys were not back. Why? I sacrificed my life and it's still not enough to prove how good i am? Mum didn't have any sleep because she was carrying the baby in her arms yet the parents were sleeping. Till this minute, i guess my mum has only rested around 2 hours and she's working now. Ok, let's just say u people have to work the next day but mum sacrificed her sleep, health and time for u guys. I only see unhappiness and unwillingness to look after the baby in u guys. I'm fking mad because we're not the parents yet we're doing so many things just because u said WE'RE PAID to babysit so we have to bear all the responsibilities that a parent has??? I wouldn't wan2 ur fking hundreds in the first place if i knew this would happen. So i see we're less important than ur money. If u want someone to be close with u then u should make the effort to spend time with her and try to do everything for her. It is not putting up a show in front of everybody to show how good u are.
A 19-year-old wouldn't want a life like mine. Babysitting? Stop freaking kidding! Nobody knows i feel like a loser. But i choose to live with it for the sake of u guys. It's really hurtful and disappointing... Tears are often hard to control whenever i quarrel. This is one of the few times when i cried real bad at the staircases because i don't wan2 cry in front of u lest u guys think i'm a crybaby. Yes, it is always hard on me. To u people, i am just a lazy girl who do nothing other than playing com and watching tv. Yes, thats the life i live but how are u guys better than me?
I volunteer to help with the housechores yet i don't even see u guys sweeping nor mopping unless mum ask u to. Spent an hour and the staircases and thought about lots of things. How did things turn out this way and why am i in this state? It's just heartbreaking.. I thought of leaving this home but it defnitely won't work things out. Everything changes so never to expect it to be the same forever. I used to think i have a family that loves me dearly when i was in primary school. Few years ago, i realised things were not the way i saw. I'm too stupid and naive. Greed, selfishness, life is just too pathetic for us. What to do? I guess it's a sin to live.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Definition of Us.
It's been long since my last post. This place is becoming more and more like a place for me to vent my emotions, especially anger~
Don't always feel happy at home especially when i need to face a couple of people with different tempers. I have to bear with them yet they don't know what i'm going through. Making all sorts of sacrifices are so not worthy because they don't even take a look at what i've done for them. I'm nopt asking for credit but can't u guys at least say "thank you" to me??? Seriously and honestly, studying and doing revisions for my exams ain't my priority at all for now. How can i focus when i have so many things to take care of at the same time? Bullshit~ What about my own life?
Anyway, had a Kbox session hours ago with my taitais. It was really once in a while because my last Kbox session was last year. I've been hiding at home for way too long time~ It was super pricey but definitely fun for me, as well as the taitais right? I only sang korean pop songs and a couple of english songs! Hehehe enjoyed tremendously but all 3 of us were damn freezing inside the room. I guess the freezing cold air-conditioning is included in the service charges and GST. Kbox please save electricity and spare a thought for our sick Earth~
Sadly, exams are nearing and i can't stop worrying. 30+, i mean i picked up 30+ strains of fallen hair yeaterday after washing my hair. Not a good sight and i know it's time i should take good care of my health and of cox, sleep EARLY~ I desire to have my normal life back! My life is so sick now. Oh never forgetting to mention, my mum finally said something i thought she would never say in this life. She finally wants me to take control of my eating habits now cox i'm always having supper before i sleep and so, she wants me to slim down now. LOL but she's right. I longed to slim down but i'm freaking lazy~ I always think of slimming down so that i'll attend my Jay baby's fanmeet prettily but hahaha, it's hopeless now because it's already too late~
Signing off now cox it's late~ and i need some sleep so that i can wake up later at 7~ bye muack~
Don't always feel happy at home especially when i need to face a couple of people with different tempers. I have to bear with them yet they don't know what i'm going through. Making all sorts of sacrifices are so not worthy because they don't even take a look at what i've done for them. I'm nopt asking for credit but can't u guys at least say "thank you" to me??? Seriously and honestly, studying and doing revisions for my exams ain't my priority at all for now. How can i focus when i have so many things to take care of at the same time? Bullshit~ What about my own life?
Anyway, had a Kbox session hours ago with my taitais. It was really once in a while because my last Kbox session was last year. I've been hiding at home for way too long time~ It was super pricey but definitely fun for me, as well as the taitais right? I only sang korean pop songs and a couple of english songs! Hehehe enjoyed tremendously but all 3 of us were damn freezing inside the room. I guess the freezing cold air-conditioning is included in the service charges and GST. Kbox please save electricity and spare a thought for our sick Earth~
Sadly, exams are nearing and i can't stop worrying. 30+, i mean i picked up 30+ strains of fallen hair yeaterday after washing my hair. Not a good sight and i know it's time i should take good care of my health and of cox, sleep EARLY~ I desire to have my normal life back! My life is so sick now. Oh never forgetting to mention, my mum finally said something i thought she would never say in this life. She finally wants me to take control of my eating habits now cox i'm always having supper before i sleep and so, she wants me to slim down now. LOL but she's right. I longed to slim down but i'm freaking lazy~ I always think of slimming down so that i'll attend my Jay baby's fanmeet prettily but hahaha, it's hopeless now because it's already too late~
Signing off now cox it's late~ and i need some sleep so that i can wake up later at 7~ bye muack~
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| the :( face i always have~ |
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Happy Birthday~
Not forgetting to mention, today is my elder sister's 27th birthday~ :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY~
I'm happy for her but nevertheless, I'm hoping some changes in her, I mean changes for the better.
Everytime I say "changes in people", I mean I sense changes in them, but they usually don't acknowledge it.
Well, am going out now for her bday celebration :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY~
I'm happy for her but nevertheless, I'm hoping some changes in her, I mean changes for the better.
Everytime I say "changes in people", I mean I sense changes in them, but they usually don't acknowledge it.
Well, am going out now for her bday celebration :)
One and Only.
Few things happened this morning and few days ago. Mixed emotions.
My great grandfather passed away few days ago and his funeral was held this morning. I couldn't attend because I need to stay in Singapore and everything just happened too suddenlys. My parents rushed back and my uncles living in other places also rushed back to see him for the last time. He's a good man, from what I heard, and all of us know he is a man blessed with many children and uncountable grandchildren, grand-grandchidren and grand-grand-grandchildren.
I dont't know if this grand-grand thing is right but I do know what it means in chinese. This is so exaggerating that anyone walking on the streets can be my relative. Do you know how to count this? This is already the 5th generation. He was 98 years old this year. 2 more years and everyone would be there to celebrate his grand 100th birthday. Not many people live till this age. What's not good about his family is that they are greedy people, excluding my kind grandma. My grandma is the only one whose not the least bit interested in his fourtune. He has so many children and he deserved to be happy. However for some poeple, money is more important. From what I heard, his sons and daughters (as I said, exclude my Grandma cox she's really not the kind of person) were more anxious about how the money would be distributed than planning a good funeral for this old man.
You can be greedy, but there a limit to everything. Is money so important to you people that its importance exceeded the importance of your father? It's a shame that I have these group of people as relatives. They are my seniors yet to most of us, I guess they deserve no respect! If I have the ability, I make the lightning strike them!!
No matter what has happened, gone is gone and I hope he's having a good time right now in the other world. :) Will miss you even though you may not know me cox I'm your grand-grandchildren~ <3
My great grandfather passed away few days ago and his funeral was held this morning. I couldn't attend because I need to stay in Singapore and everything just happened too suddenlys. My parents rushed back and my uncles living in other places also rushed back to see him for the last time. He's a good man, from what I heard, and all of us know he is a man blessed with many children and uncountable grandchildren, grand-grandchidren and grand-grand-grandchildren.
I dont't know if this grand-grand thing is right but I do know what it means in chinese. This is so exaggerating that anyone walking on the streets can be my relative. Do you know how to count this? This is already the 5th generation. He was 98 years old this year. 2 more years and everyone would be there to celebrate his grand 100th birthday. Not many people live till this age. What's not good about his family is that they are greedy people, excluding my kind grandma. My grandma is the only one whose not the least bit interested in his fourtune. He has so many children and he deserved to be happy. However for some poeple, money is more important. From what I heard, his sons and daughters (as I said, exclude my Grandma cox she's really not the kind of person) were more anxious about how the money would be distributed than planning a good funeral for this old man.
You can be greedy, but there a limit to everything. Is money so important to you people that its importance exceeded the importance of your father? It's a shame that I have these group of people as relatives. They are my seniors yet to most of us, I guess they deserve no respect! If I have the ability, I make the lightning strike them!!
No matter what has happened, gone is gone and I hope he's having a good time right now in the other world. :) Will miss you even though you may not know me cox I'm your grand-grandchildren~ <3
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
No need to question.
Hahahahaha my very dear sis just told me no need to pay for my Jay Park Fan Meets ticket because that is my reward for working hard to look after her baby girl~ hahaha good idea too! :D actually im a little worried if i would be alone/ lonely cox even if I go with the fanclub ppl, there may not be much to talk about and emptiness and awkwardness will fill in between -.- die.
Things always happen this way.
If there is one thing for u to be happy about, then it will always have another thing for u to trouble. I don't know if im too sensitive and troubling over every detail. Am I correct? Did I say it wrongly again? Im always doubting my english skills cox my english sucks.
Things always happen this way.
If there is one thing for u to be happy about, then it will always have another thing for u to trouble. I don't know if im too sensitive and troubling over every detail. Am I correct? Did I say it wrongly again? Im always doubting my english skills cox my english sucks.
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| ultimate kisses for this ticket and my sis and JAY~ *muacks* |
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Worth It Or Not.
Kekekekekeke~ Am quite happy for the past week over certain things and event :D
As long as you're feeling happy, luck will come your way~ hahahah I've gotten my "Jay Park Fan Meets Tour 2010" ticket few days ago!!!!!!! Credits to my sis muack!!! <3 Strangely but happily, Mum sounded a little worried when she knew I'll be going alone and so she asked my little brother if he wanted to go. Too bad my brother showed more interest in 2PM than Jay. I'm much more interested in the latter~Well, I can still go without anyone accompanying me. What surprised me most was that Mum actually hinted that she was willing to pay for my brother's ticket if he's going. Hmph. She really dotes on him. Well, I paid my ticket with my own salary this time. No doubt the ticket is EXPENSIVE so I really really really hope the showcase is worth the amount I paid for it :) Anyway a big part of it is already worth the money cox I get to see my Jay singing and dancing :) Hey that's pretty awesome already hahaha! I know I sound super fanatic like crazy fangirls fangirling.
Anyways, I attended 2AM's Singapore Showcase @ IMM last Saturday :) pretty cool!! They look so fine in person and they have nice bodies too hehehe! Tall guys who sing well are attractive! Get to hear them sing live is a fortunate thing because they sing so well~ I was hoping to bring my mum and brother along but that would mean they have to buy 2 more albums to get the entrance tickets and it's denifinitely not worth it. So I arrived just in time and stood there waiting for them to arrive because they were late and no official reason was released. Actually I'm ok with it and I didn't hear anyone complaining about it so no big deal as long as they went right? Haha. Brought a digital cam and a camcorder in case in need of both. I was disappointed by the Nikon digicam cox it was not as good as I thought it would be. Total failure. 12megapixels and yet zoom effect photos were blurry. Cant even capture a proper photo. Fortunately the camcorder worked better than I expected so things went out better. Left early before the autograph session ended because there was nothing for me to do. I didn't get the pass for their autographs but I managed to capture a photo of the signed album from an unknown fan haha!
Alright, enough of my fangirl stories.
From April till now, many things happened and it's not that I don't know what's going on. Although I can't read minds, I can tell how some people feel about me. Whether you're true or not, I can somehow feel it. Action speaks a thousand words. You don't need to tell me what you're thinking because I don't need it anymore. 2 different people giving me the same attitude tells me that I am rather insignificant. I thought too highly of myself because I once believed I was what they told me. Nobody likes a slap in the face. Giving your precious time to a non-worthy cause, may not be worth it. If this is what you have in mind all these time, then likewise to me, you're what I think to be something unworthy of my time.
Thank you for being who you are and have a nice day.
As long as you're feeling happy, luck will come your way~ hahahah I've gotten my "Jay Park Fan Meets Tour 2010" ticket few days ago!!!!!!! Credits to my sis muack!!! <3 Strangely but happily, Mum sounded a little worried when she knew I'll be going alone and so she asked my little brother if he wanted to go. Too bad my brother showed more interest in 2PM than Jay. I'm much more interested in the latter~Well, I can still go without anyone accompanying me. What surprised me most was that Mum actually hinted that she was willing to pay for my brother's ticket if he's going. Hmph. She really dotes on him. Well, I paid my ticket with my own salary this time. No doubt the ticket is EXPENSIVE so I really really really hope the showcase is worth the amount I paid for it :) Anyway a big part of it is already worth the money cox I get to see my Jay singing and dancing :) Hey that's pretty awesome already hahaha! I know I sound super fanatic like crazy fangirls fangirling.
Anyways, I attended 2AM's Singapore Showcase @ IMM last Saturday :) pretty cool!! They look so fine in person and they have nice bodies too hehehe! Tall guys who sing well are attractive! Get to hear them sing live is a fortunate thing because they sing so well~ I was hoping to bring my mum and brother along but that would mean they have to buy 2 more albums to get the entrance tickets and it's denifinitely not worth it. So I arrived just in time and stood there waiting for them to arrive because they were late and no official reason was released. Actually I'm ok with it and I didn't hear anyone complaining about it so no big deal as long as they went right? Haha. Brought a digital cam and a camcorder in case in need of both. I was disappointed by the Nikon digicam cox it was not as good as I thought it would be. Total failure. 12megapixels and yet zoom effect photos were blurry. Cant even capture a proper photo. Fortunately the camcorder worked better than I expected so things went out better. Left early before the autograph session ended because there was nothing for me to do. I didn't get the pass for their autographs but I managed to capture a photo of the signed album from an unknown fan haha!
Alright, enough of my fangirl stories.
From April till now, many things happened and it's not that I don't know what's going on. Although I can't read minds, I can tell how some people feel about me. Whether you're true or not, I can somehow feel it. Action speaks a thousand words. You don't need to tell me what you're thinking because I don't need it anymore. 2 different people giving me the same attitude tells me that I am rather insignificant. I thought too highly of myself because I once believed I was what they told me. Nobody likes a slap in the face. Giving your precious time to a non-worthy cause, may not be worth it. If this is what you have in mind all these time, then likewise to me, you're what I think to be something unworthy of my time.
Thank you for being who you are and have a nice day.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Do抖 Re累 Mi迷 Fa乏 SOOOOOOO~
Hey Hey you you ~ it's been more than a month since I wrote something here~ it's gonna be a long post. Kudos to u if u are willing to read everything written here ^ㅠ^
As usual, my daily lives revolve around babysitting and nothing else. There are times when I'm tired and bored and times when I really wan2 go out for a walk or do some shopping but, haha I simply can't. U see, if I'm not at home, my Mum would be very busy doing her chores and looking after the baby at the same time. She's not wonder woman and I can't bear to let her do everything for me. Tsk no choice. There was a job offer for me to work around next week but I guess I have to turn down the offer to look after the baby. I want more pocket money~~~ so maybe I'll ask for more when my sis gets her salary HAHAHAHAHA!
Well, the 1st and 2nd weeks of June were fun because my little cousins and nephew were here for holidays! :D All I could remember were extreme noises, shoutings & scoldings, high-pitched singing and a floor of toys, pillows & bolsters. Totally chaotic! I was scolding them almost once in every hour because honestly I couldn't control thase kids. They were cycling in the house and barging in and out of the baby room and disturbing me! Hahaha~ wished they were here cox my house is so quiet now. Aww I miss them~~~
Soooo yesterday 4E2'09's class CEO organised a bbq session and I went. I haven't seen some friends for more than half a year so haha, it's great to meet them again. Not much conversation there because my mind state was blank and I did not know what to say/ do. I guess I don't really know how to socialise with ppl~ It was a little boring and I ate a hotdog, a satay and 2 otahs for $7~ LOL~ but I thought it was worth because I get to see my sec 3+4 sch classmates(?) maybe? hahaha. Hopefully there'll be another class gathering this next half of 2010.
Time flies really fast and it's officially less than 90 days to my 19th bday. I have yet to accomplish any big thing and make a name for myself (<< is this correct??) and now 19 is coming after me like a F1 racing car on racing track. Tsk tsk tsk. Alright enough of my babblings and stuff and here's some photos taken yesterday and weeks ago.
즐길~~~~~
As usual, my daily lives revolve around babysitting and nothing else. There are times when I'm tired and bored and times when I really wan2 go out for a walk or do some shopping but, haha I simply can't. U see, if I'm not at home, my Mum would be very busy doing her chores and looking after the baby at the same time. She's not wonder woman and I can't bear to let her do everything for me. Tsk no choice. There was a job offer for me to work around next week but I guess I have to turn down the offer to look after the baby. I want more pocket money~~~ so maybe I'll ask for more when my sis gets her salary HAHAHAHAHA!
Well, the 1st and 2nd weeks of June were fun because my little cousins and nephew were here for holidays! :D All I could remember were extreme noises, shoutings & scoldings, high-pitched singing and a floor of toys, pillows & bolsters. Totally chaotic! I was scolding them almost once in every hour because honestly I couldn't control thase kids. They were cycling in the house and barging in and out of the baby room and disturbing me! Hahaha~ wished they were here cox my house is so quiet now. Aww I miss them~~~
Soooo yesterday 4E2'09's class CEO organised a bbq session and I went. I haven't seen some friends for more than half a year so haha, it's great to meet them again. Not much conversation there because my mind state was blank and I did not know what to say/ do. I guess I don't really know how to socialise with ppl~ It was a little boring and I ate a hotdog, a satay and 2 otahs for $7~ LOL~ but I thought it was worth because I get to see my sec 3+4 sch classmates(?) maybe? hahaha. Hopefully there'll be another class gathering this next half of 2010.
Time flies really fast and it's officially less than 90 days to my 19th bday. I have yet to accomplish any big thing and make a name for myself (<< is this correct??) and now 19 is coming after me like a F1 racing car on racing track. Tsk tsk tsk. Alright enough of my babblings and stuff and here's some photos taken yesterday and weeks ago.
즐길~~~~~
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| taken when she was looking away :D |
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| ignore those legs :D |
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| he looks sleepy even when he's energetic haha. |
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| though their age gap is a year apart but actually they're uncle and nephew relations :D fun right? |
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| don't doubt, whitest hand belongs to me :D |
Exclusive: home-made magic video starring my cousin and nephew. Ignore the background voice and my empty room :D
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Timed.
So rare to see me online so early right?
diggin' the new song "2 Different Tears"~
most in love with these part of the lyrics:
Anyway, just got back from the Wonder Girls Ustream launch event and I woke up early in the morning just to watch it~
it was cool and their new song is awesome :Ddiggin' the new song "2 Different Tears"~
most in love with these part of the lyrics:
" gave me 2 different tears
after all these years
tears of joy tears of painlike sunshine and rain
so I hate you
so I love you "
Well, nothing much happened in the past few weeks and likewise everyone is moving on with their lives and I'm trying my best for mine.
Have been feeling a little choked up at times for some reasons, mostly bad ones.
Future seems so bleak to me and I don't know what the next step looks like. Look on the bright side? emm not so sure..
I think I'm gonna get a new job pretty soon though things are still very unclear.
Won't be updating so often I think :)죽을 만큼 잊고 싶다...
Monday, May 3, 2010
Clouds.
A very meaningful song by Dumbfoundead, Jay Park & Clara Chung.
One of the most simplistic and real songs singing about life that I've ever heard.
Good people, Good music, which I can't agree more~
Loving this song! :)
I specially love this few part of the lyrics and it just can't get out of my mind.
"When the clouds are in the sky
Know that they're just passing by
There'll be sunshine
If your days are stormy nights
Dry the raindrops from your eyes
There will be sunshine"
"But I know the wondrous things are coming to visit again someday
So no worries I just stand here with a smirk on my face
Although I know some people out there throwin' dirt on my name
But it's all good
Still show' em some love
Cause unlike that girl from the movie I ain't holdin' no grudge"
One of the most simplistic and real songs singing about life that I've ever heard.
Good people, Good music, which I can't agree more~
Loving this song! :)
I specially love this few part of the lyrics and it just can't get out of my mind.
"When the clouds are in the sky
Know that they're just passing by
There'll be sunshine
If your days are stormy nights
Dry the raindrops from your eyes
There will be sunshine"
"But I know the wondrous things are coming to visit again someday
So no worries I just stand here with a smirk on my face
Although I know some people out there throwin' dirt on my name
But it's all good
Still show' em some love
Cause unlike that girl from the movie I ain't holdin' no grudge"
Some Love.
Had been really busy this week, I mean last week because the time now is almost nearing 4am, which is a Monday again~
Had to stand 12 hours everyday but luckily this job ended!!
Working and tiring myself out and even fell sick for 3 days but I still went to work.
From slight fever to high fever, sore throat to coughing and flu to nose block~ they're all killing me!
All these bad issues visited together and I did felt I was dying but thankfully I've almost recovered now.
Dad and Mom were really sweet as they showered me with so much love when I was sick ^,^
My pretty sisters were awesome too as they encouraged me that I would do a nice job ^,^
Hahaha as much as I want $$$, I still dragged my dying body to work that wreck job when I couldn't even stand properly and my face was pale!
The job's not fun and is tiring and bothersome. SaSa indeed does not offer nice jobs.
Anyways, got in touch with so many rude, nonsensical and some other really nice people.
I've been clenching my fists as I served the rude ones and tried my best to squeeze some smile on my face.
These people don't deserve to be treated nicely but you know, it's my job.
Customers come first, but what's the big deal when you're not being nice to others???
Respect others before you want others to respect you.
Anyway, this quote apllies to some friends around me and I sincerely hope you guys get this right.
I've been feeling so pissed off recently because I simply can't get through some stupid things which happened few weeks ago.
What's so great about you when you don't even appreciate other people?
Do you actually know you've made a mistake even before I've made one?
How can you accept my apology so easily as if nothing happened when you are supposed to be the one apologising for your mistake first?
I hinted you but you acted like you were innoncent and it really disgusts me alot, even right now at this very moment.
Don't take things for granted when it comes to me and you or anybody else.
I hate people who don't appreciate my efforts such as not replying my messages at all even though you may not be able to reply instantly. At least give my a simple reply no matter how late it is right?
Don't make me wait like a dumb ass!
You don't know how it feels to wait in vain with all those sulky feelings being disppointed and ignored when you're enjoying yourself with other friends.
Don't give me empty promises if you already know you can't fulfill anything. Stop being sucha hyprocrite.
I have to admit that I was a person who used to give you empty promise but I did apologised for it.
It is so much easier to forgive your enemies than your friends because I always treats you as one of my best pals but all I get in return are some fake feelings.
This is one of the sillest mistake I've ever made, believing you would be truthful to me.
I guess friendships indeed don't last long and it's hard to find a true friend.
Everyone is going on with a different path right now and I do believe I do not stand a place in you guys' hearts.
It may be because I'm different from you guys, like age or some other things, I'm not so sure about these but I guess it's quite true actually.
I'm not mad or sad at these because this is the real life, right?
Learning all these life lessons makes one grow and I also learnt that my family is always the best because they will not leave me in lurch no matter what happens.
Do treasure you loved ones when you can.
I love my family!!!!! ^,^
"Omma, Appa, Unnie, dongsaeng-ah, nan neomu neomu Saranghae~"
Had to stand 12 hours everyday but luckily this job ended!!
Working and tiring myself out and even fell sick for 3 days but I still went to work.
From slight fever to high fever, sore throat to coughing and flu to nose block~ they're all killing me!
All these bad issues visited together and I did felt I was dying but thankfully I've almost recovered now.
Dad and Mom were really sweet as they showered me with so much love when I was sick ^,^
My pretty sisters were awesome too as they encouraged me that I would do a nice job ^,^
Hahaha as much as I want $$$, I still dragged my dying body to work that wreck job when I couldn't even stand properly and my face was pale!
The job's not fun and is tiring and bothersome. SaSa indeed does not offer nice jobs.
Anyways, got in touch with so many rude, nonsensical and some other really nice people.
I've been clenching my fists as I served the rude ones and tried my best to squeeze some smile on my face.
These people don't deserve to be treated nicely but you know, it's my job.
Customers come first, but what's the big deal when you're not being nice to others???
Respect others before you want others to respect you.
Anyway, this quote apllies to some friends around me and I sincerely hope you guys get this right.
I've been feeling so pissed off recently because I simply can't get through some stupid things which happened few weeks ago.
What's so great about you when you don't even appreciate other people?
Do you actually know you've made a mistake even before I've made one?
How can you accept my apology so easily as if nothing happened when you are supposed to be the one apologising for your mistake first?
I hinted you but you acted like you were innoncent and it really disgusts me alot, even right now at this very moment.
Don't take things for granted when it comes to me and you or anybody else.
I hate people who don't appreciate my efforts such as not replying my messages at all even though you may not be able to reply instantly. At least give my a simple reply no matter how late it is right?
Don't make me wait like a dumb ass!
You don't know how it feels to wait in vain with all those sulky feelings being disppointed and ignored when you're enjoying yourself with other friends.
Don't give me empty promises if you already know you can't fulfill anything. Stop being sucha hyprocrite.
I have to admit that I was a person who used to give you empty promise but I did apologised for it.
It is so much easier to forgive your enemies than your friends because I always treats you as one of my best pals but all I get in return are some fake feelings.
This is one of the sillest mistake I've ever made, believing you would be truthful to me.
I guess friendships indeed don't last long and it's hard to find a true friend.
Everyone is going on with a different path right now and I do believe I do not stand a place in you guys' hearts.
It may be because I'm different from you guys, like age or some other things, I'm not so sure about these but I guess it's quite true actually.
I'm not mad or sad at these because this is the real life, right?
Learning all these life lessons makes one grow and I also learnt that my family is always the best because they will not leave me in lurch no matter what happens.
Do treasure you loved ones when you can.
I love my family!!!!! ^,^
"Omma, Appa, Unnie, dongsaeng-ah, nan neomu neomu Saranghae~"
Sunday, April 25, 2010
You're Seattle Babaaaaaaaaaay~
OMG! I'm almost posting this "OMG" on whichever site i go now~
Today is a big big day but I'm sure u guys don't know what is it~
It's my Jay baby's 23rd birthday now, according to Singapore time which is 15 hours ahead of Seattle time.
They're experiencing morning now while I'm feeling some heavy weight on my eyelids as if they're falling anytime.
So cut the chase, here's my most sincere and full of love message, and if my Jay baby ever sees this~
Hey Jay,
Happy Birthday on your very special day~
You're not getting old but just another year's of experience~
To the world, you may be a tiny person. But to me, you're the world :)
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Today is a big big day but I'm sure u guys don't know what is it~
It's my Jay baby's 23rd birthday now, according to Singapore time which is 15 hours ahead of Seattle time.
They're experiencing morning now while I'm feeling some heavy weight on my eyelids as if they're falling anytime.
I'm so tired right now cox I went shopping with Teng Teng in the noon. Anyway, for your information, we went to Orchard~ Hahaha~
So cut the chase, here's my most sincere and full of love message, and if my Jay baby ever sees this~
Hey Jay,
Happy Birthday on your very special day~
You're not getting old but just another year's of experience~
To the world, you may be a tiny person. But to me, you're the world :)
I do hope you'll grow taller though you're not short at all but emm, your everything is just too perfect~
May your everyday be filled with endless love and laughter~
All the best to you~
*hugs*
I can't imagine how many birthday wishes he's getting right now~ hahaha!
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Keep on Smiling~
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Random.
It's 3:26 AM now as I'm writing this little post here!
I'm feeling a littler hunger right now but I seriously do not think this is a time to eat so I just made myself a cup of hot drink.
I've been craving for Mac Spicy all day long since last week but I simply can't allow myself to spend too much because I'm trying to save as much $$$ as possible.
The theory of " 吃进去还不是一样要排出来 " saves me from lots of unecessary spendings as I try to eat any food that can fill my stomach.
Furthermore, eating that will give me more fats right?
Anyways, how did u guys spend April Fool's day?
As usual, I stayed at home and only received 1 April Fool msg.
I'm glad to know that not many people want to play prank on me :D
Meanwhile, I've just sorted out my past blog posts and I found myself a really chidish person in the past, or maybe still the same.
I used to speak without sense and knowledge and my english sucks too!
I'm not very sure if my english speaking and writing language improve but I'm trying to read and watch in english language now.
OMG~ so embarrassing~ Alright, most people are embarrassed when they look at their pasts.
Talk about pasts, who don't have one?
Okay, the ever childish Tan Her Wen just went to play the genius game which the genius will guess who you're thinking of right now.
The first attempt was a failure though the answer given was really close! *GIGGLES*
It was Nichkhun~
YES, it got the right guess in the second attempt! WOOHOO~
My ever handsome and adorable JAY PARK then appeared on the screen and I simply can't take my eyes off him anymore though we are considered "strangers".
We don't even know each other in real life and I'm always so crazy over him LOL~~~
Alright, I think all these has wrapped up what I have in my mind right now so off to bed in minutes time.
Goodnight people~ *kiss goodnight*
P.S. Do try this Web Genius thing though I've already pasted the link before in the past. Just some lame thing to pass time and make urself happy right?
^ㅠ^ crazily in love with these korean smiley emotions~
I'm feeling a littler hunger right now but I seriously do not think this is a time to eat so I just made myself a cup of hot drink.
I've been craving for Mac Spicy all day long since last week but I simply can't allow myself to spend too much because I'm trying to save as much $$$ as possible.
The theory of " 吃进去还不是一样要排出来 " saves me from lots of unecessary spendings as I try to eat any food that can fill my stomach.
Furthermore, eating that will give me more fats right?
Anyways, how did u guys spend April Fool's day?
As usual, I stayed at home and only received 1 April Fool msg.
I'm glad to know that not many people want to play prank on me :D
Meanwhile, I've just sorted out my past blog posts and I found myself a really chidish person in the past, or maybe still the same.
I used to speak without sense and knowledge and my english sucks too!
I'm not very sure if my english speaking and writing language improve but I'm trying to read and watch in english language now.
OMG~ so embarrassing~ Alright, most people are embarrassed when they look at their pasts.
Talk about pasts, who don't have one?
Okay, the ever childish Tan Her Wen just went to play the genius game which the genius will guess who you're thinking of right now.
The first attempt was a failure though the answer given was really close! *GIGGLES*
It was Nichkhun~
YES, it got the right guess in the second attempt! WOOHOO~
My ever handsome and adorable JAY PARK then appeared on the screen and I simply can't take my eyes off him anymore though we are considered "strangers".
We don't even know each other in real life and I'm always so crazy over him LOL~~~
Alright, I think all these has wrapped up what I have in my mind right now so off to bed in minutes time.
Goodnight people~ *kiss goodnight*
P.S. Do try this Web Genius thing though I've already pasted the link before in the past. Just some lame thing to pass time and make urself happy right?
^ㅠ^ crazily in love with these korean smiley emotions~
Monday, March 29, 2010
Girls' moments.
Hey guys, I'm back again~
Just came back after meeting my Siewteng & Jiaojun in Jurong point (^,^)b
It's been long since I last met them. Promise to meet again maybe next week :D
Anyways, Jiaojun gave me her study notes done in Sec 3&4 while Siewteng forgot to bring hers!
Hahaha extremely happy to see so much good study notes~
Thx for the effort for bringing it to me though it's very heavy! :D
Well, they have their lunch in Carl's Jr and both of them got a set meal for themselves.
I should have taken photos of the 2ENORMOUS burgers and show u guys!
Both the girls didn't finish the whole meal cox it's sooooooooo much!
I only ate few fries cox the sights of the 2 ENORMOUS burgers already make me full.
It's so big that Siewteng kept complaining of the heavy weight of the burger.
So if anyone want to compare other brands'Macdonald's burger with Carl's Jr's, it will be 小巫见大巫~
It's quite cool actually, but I won't dare to eat their burgers in the future!
After the lunch, went to shop around and they bought their bday gifts and then we saw Jinmei &Serli.
SO SURPRISING!!!!!!!!!!! Never thought of seeing them there HAHAHAHAHA!
As soon as I saw Jinmei, I recalled funny things that happened 2 days ago.
I was meeting Joop & Jinmei in JP for lunch/or maybe dinner, then as we chatted something about "rape", Jinmei said the word "RAPER" as RAPIST~
Both me & Joop cracked up upon hearing that!
Now then i know she followed my way of pronouncing "RAP" as "RAPE"~
Hahaha, so after sending Joop to the bus interchange, we 2 walked to take the MRT.
So the MRT came very quickly and she wanted to enter the further cabin.
I told her I think the doors would be closing soon but she kept walking to the door she wanted to enter.
Now that's the funny part, the door closed the moment she entered and I was still left at the platform~
I wanted to laugh so I tried to cover my mouth and faced down and thus she had to wait for me at the next station.
Lesson learnt, never to enter the MRT when the red lights near the doors are flashing fast~
I had already learnt my lessons many many years ago so hahahahha~
She must be scared right?
Alright, end of my stories and so, byebyeeeee~~~
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Just came back after meeting my Siewteng & Jiaojun in Jurong point (^,^)b
It's been long since I last met them. Promise to meet again maybe next week :D
Anyways, Jiaojun gave me her study notes done in Sec 3&4 while Siewteng forgot to bring hers!
Hahaha extremely happy to see so much good study notes~
Thx for the effort for bringing it to me though it's very heavy! :D
Well, they have their lunch in Carl's Jr and both of them got a set meal for themselves.
I should have taken photos of the 2
Both the girls didn't finish the whole meal cox it's sooooooooo much!
I only ate few fries cox the sights of the 2 ENORMOUS burgers already make me full.
It's so big that Siewteng kept complaining of the heavy weight of the burger.
So if anyone want to compare other brands'
It's quite cool actually, but I won't dare to eat their burgers in the future!
After the lunch, went to shop around and they bought their bday gifts and then we saw Jinmei &Serli.
SO SURPRISING!!!!!!!!!!! Never thought of seeing them there HAHAHAHAHA!
As soon as I saw Jinmei, I recalled funny things that happened 2 days ago.
I was meeting Joop & Jinmei in JP for lunch/or maybe dinner, then as we chatted something about "rape", Jinmei said the word "RAPER" as RAPIST~
Both me & Joop cracked up upon hearing that!
Now then i know she followed my way of pronouncing "RAP" as "RAPE"~
Hahaha, so after sending Joop to the bus interchange, we 2 walked to take the MRT.
So the MRT came very quickly and she wanted to enter the further cabin.
I told her I think the doors would be closing soon but she kept walking to the door she wanted to enter.
Now that's the funny part, the door closed the moment she entered and I was still left at the platform~
I wanted to laugh so I tried to cover my mouth and faced down and thus she had to wait for me at the next station.
Lesson learnt, never to enter the MRT when the red lights near the doors are flashing fast~
I had already learnt my lessons many many years ago so hahahahha~
She must be scared right?
Alright, end of my stories and so, byebyeeeee~~~
\(n,n)/
Friday, March 19, 2010
A Day.
Hey guys, i'm back after a long break from blogging.
I've nothing much to blog these days so i don't think i will update often.
Well, i met up with classmates yeaterday to collect testimonials together as a class.
Although not all of the friends turned up, it's great to see them again.
It's been like... 2 months plus since i last saw them.
Visiting the school made me miss the school times alot especially times when i studied with friends and had my CCA lessons.
Gosh, i wasn't like this in the past..
I miss school~
Anyways, my elder sister, Alvis cousin and my nephew came here on wednesday.
I spent my whole night chitchatting with my 2 sisters and cousin! :D
I love chitchatt sessions like this and we turned in around 6am.
My two sisters want me to find a job soon cox i've been idling at home for the past few months. I admit i'm a super lazy person.
Futhermore, both my sisters agreed that it's my personality that make guys turn away from me.
OMY, is that true???
I think i'm just 宅, u know宅女??
I'm on for all the 宅女 criterias, playing online games and always staying at home etc.
Am i that bad?? Or i don't look good? It's confusing!
One thing for sure, i don't really speak well, may it be anybody or good friends :(
Anyways, ever so sweet Jay Park uploaded his own video in his very own youtube account few days ago and i was totally happy like siao!
It was already 6 months since fans saw him clearly in videos and pictures and heard him singing!
Yeeeeeeppy!!! I can leave message saying how much i adore and love him anytime and he will definitely see it! :D
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
so, Jay oppa FIGHTING!!
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I've nothing much to blog these days so i don't think i will update often.
Well, i met up with classmates yeaterday to collect testimonials together as a class.
Although not all of the friends turned up, it's great to see them again.
It's been like... 2 months plus since i last saw them.
Visiting the school made me miss the school times alot especially times when i studied with friends and had my CCA lessons.
Gosh, i wasn't like this in the past..
I miss school~
Anyways, my elder sister, Alvis cousin and my nephew came here on wednesday.
I spent my whole night chitchatting with my 2 sisters and cousin! :D
I love chitchatt sessions like this and we turned in around 6am.
My two sisters want me to find a job soon cox i've been idling at home for the past few months. I admit i'm a super lazy person.
Futhermore, both my sisters agreed that it's my personality that make guys turn away from me.
OMY, is that true???
I think i'm just 宅, u know宅女??
I'm on for all the 宅女 criterias, playing online games and always staying at home etc.
Am i that bad?? Or i don't look good? It's confusing!
One thing for sure, i don't really speak well, may it be anybody or good friends :(
Anyways, ever so sweet Jay Park uploaded his own video in his very own youtube account few days ago and i was totally happy like siao!
It was already 6 months since fans saw him clearly in videos and pictures and heard him singing!
Yeeeeeeppy!!! I can leave message saying how much i adore and love him anytime and he will definitely see it! :D
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
so, Jay oppa FIGHTING!!
\(^.^)/
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Happiest.
hey guys!!! im finally back here after 3 weeks of stay in malaysia :D
spent most of my time with my elder sister and her baby girl as i helped to prepare milk and stuffs.
it's not as easy as it seem to be and i think i've learnt quite a number of things now~ hehe that will be useful and handy when i have my own baby right? i spent few nights alone at my own home while most of the time with my sis and the baby at my aunty's house.
sleeping alone in a big house was quiet but not eerie, and those mosquitoes accompanied me!
that was the time when i thought i should be brave and independent and i actually enjoyed it.
oh ya, a piece of news to share!
i can finally drive a motorcycle on my own!!!!! hahahaha!!!
i remembered i was trembling and heart was pounding really fast and god, it was actually very easy~
life was a little boring cox i didnt get to use computer much and there werent alot of interesting tv programmes.
i miss my com soooooo much!!! i miss my 2PM & 2AM too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh my god!!!!!!!!!!
anyways, hahahaha, do u guys know that 2PM's latest album is officially sold in singapore?
i just knew it and i couldnt stop giggling! hahahahahahha!
im gonna get it asap and kiss it! wootsssss!!! muack~~
emm, just a short update and i'll be logging off soon!
few photos taken during CNY with my little cousins and nephew shall be in the next post cox i cant upload it here!
so, bye ladies~
spent most of my time with my elder sister and her baby girl as i helped to prepare milk and stuffs.
it's not as easy as it seem to be and i think i've learnt quite a number of things now~ hehe that will be useful and handy when i have my own baby right? i spent few nights alone at my own home while most of the time with my sis and the baby at my aunty's house.
sleeping alone in a big house was quiet but not eerie, and those mosquitoes accompanied me!
that was the time when i thought i should be brave and independent and i actually enjoyed it.
oh ya, a piece of news to share!
i can finally drive a motorcycle on my own!!!!! hahahaha!!!
i remembered i was trembling and heart was pounding really fast and god, it was actually very easy~
life was a little boring cox i didnt get to use computer much and there werent alot of interesting tv programmes.
i miss my com soooooo much!!! i miss my 2PM & 2AM too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh my god!!!!!!!!!!
anyways, hahahaha, do u guys know that 2PM's latest album is officially sold in singapore?
i just knew it and i couldnt stop giggling! hahahahahahha!
im gonna get it asap and kiss it! wootsssss!!! muack~~
emm, just a short update and i'll be logging off soon!
few photos taken during CNY with my little cousins and nephew shall be in the next post cox i cant upload it here!
so, bye ladies~
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I will never let go.
One of the best and sweetest dreams i had yeaterday, cox i dreamt of PARK JAEBEOM :D
though he's not back yet but it felt so real, as if he was by my side (hehehehehehe~)
emm, my days at home are boring and dead.
CNY is coming soon and i havent gotten any new clothes.
i dont know what kinda clothes i should buy, but i will still go with my casual and comfortable style~
mom's nagging at me but she told me not to spend too much.
but i think i will only be shopping at few places like Jurong point, just somewhere near, so i dont think i can save much.
well, going to dye hair soon, most probably some brown color?
a little disppointed when my 姐夫 told me he's only free on 07.02.2010, just a week away from CNY.
it's sooooo late~ but anything, as long as my hair color changes :D
just a short update of what i've been on and so, byebye~~~ :D
though he's not back yet but it felt so real, as if he was by my side (hehehehehehe~)
emm, my days at home are boring and dead.
CNY is coming soon and i havent gotten any new clothes.
i dont know what kinda clothes i should buy, but i will still go with my casual and comfortable style~
mom's nagging at me but she told me not to spend too much.
but i think i will only be shopping at few places like Jurong point, just somewhere near, so i dont think i can save much.
well, going to dye hair soon, most probably some brown color?
a little disppointed when my 姐夫 told me he's only free on 07.02.2010, just a week away from CNY.
it's sooooo late~ but anything, as long as my hair color changes :D
just a short update of what i've been on and so, byebye~~~ :D
Friday, January 8, 2010
Promise.
im back~
broke my promise saying that i would go out with my girls but instead i stayed at home again.
im sorry girls~ i need to save some cash and i hope u will understand.
this blog is certainly deserted and i couldnt feel a single fly (T,T)
sigh. this week is aspiring for me and i feel that i have so much things to accomplish.
certain things concerning my own future have been decided because next monday is the dooms day.
guys, are y'all anxious abt the outcome??
i dont know how im feeling right now, cox im definitely not looking forward to it.
gonna make good use of the few days left before stepping into the hell.
bye, see u guys on monday~
broke my promise saying that i would go out with my girls but instead i stayed at home again.
im sorry girls~ i need to save some cash and i hope u will understand.
this blog is certainly deserted and i couldnt feel a single fly (T,T)
sigh. this week is aspiring for me and i feel that i have so much things to accomplish.
certain things concerning my own future have been decided because next monday is the dooms day.
guys, are y'all anxious abt the outcome??
i dont know how im feeling right now, cox im definitely not looking forward to it.
gonna make good use of the few days left before stepping into the hell.
bye, see u guys on monday~
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Bliss.
My late Happy New Year greeting here cox i thought i posted my post that day.
hahaha i just checked it and realised i only save it as draft.
well, i shall repeat my wishes here :D
1. i want to grow taller (abt 165cm, despite being 18 right?)
emm i do 100 or more skippings and drink milk everyday before i sleep.
i hope this method will work.
it's not too late right? :D
2. everyone to be healthy and happy!! health is the most important thing! :D
for the past few months i've been trying to deal with my own problems and i wish i will so-called "recover" one day and let me live my life like before.
3. accomplish the things i've not done so, maybe accomplish my own dreams :)
but to me, this can be impossible because of my health probs :(
4. acceptable Olvl results, though i don't have much confidence in it.
1st day of 2010 is of both happiness and displeasure. i thought it was Thursday and i eventually missed all my friday tv programmes.
i regretted so much!!!!
i missed my 2PM's performance in Music Bank and Rain's Fashion concert!
i even see things wrongly, like missing a letter or seeing the wrong number. probably signs of getting old? hahaha!
blame nobody but myself for having real bad memory these days due to sleeping lately.
i've never turned in before 3am and only wake up in the afternoon.
i'm trying to sleep earlier now cox my dark eye rings are getting darker.
blissfully, my elder sister has gave birth to a healthy New Year baby girl and i've yet gone back to see them.
i think i'll go back Malaysia in a few days time hahaha!
so im logging off and will be meeting JinMooooi later on :D
see you again~~~
hahaha i just checked it and realised i only save it as draft.
well, i shall repeat my wishes here :D
1. i want to grow taller (abt 165cm, despite being 18 right?)
emm i do 100 or more skippings and drink milk everyday before i sleep.
i hope this method will work.
it's not too late right? :D
2. everyone to be healthy and happy!! health is the most important thing! :D
for the past few months i've been trying to deal with my own problems and i wish i will so-called "recover" one day and let me live my life like before.
3. accomplish the things i've not done so, maybe accomplish my own dreams :)
but to me, this can be impossible because of my health probs :(
4. acceptable Olvl results, though i don't have much confidence in it.
1st day of 2010 is of both happiness and displeasure. i thought it was Thursday and i eventually missed all my friday tv programmes.
i regretted so much!!!!
i missed my 2PM's performance in Music Bank and Rain's Fashion concert!
i even see things wrongly, like missing a letter or seeing the wrong number. probably signs of getting old? hahaha!
blame nobody but myself for having real bad memory these days due to sleeping lately.
i've never turned in before 3am and only wake up in the afternoon.
i'm trying to sleep earlier now cox my dark eye rings are getting darker.
blissfully, my elder sister has gave birth to a healthy New Year baby girl and i've yet gone back to see them.
i think i'll go back Malaysia in a few days time hahaha!
so im logging off and will be meeting JinMooooi later on :D
see you again~~~
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